Awareness & Sand
This week, for the first time (first time) I sat down and went through our bank statements. 3 months worth.
Now for most people, that’s probably just a matter of course. But until now, I didn’t really understand what it truly means to be _aware_ of your financial situation.
I cannot believe what I found. When you are getting $20 cash out at Maccas with a meal, it doesn’t seem like much at all. But you do it 10 times a month, and BAM .. that adds up.
We have been (this is my new word for the nonce) _haemorrhaging_ money for quite some time. And I’d always blamed the bills, the payment of debt. It’s true, we got into a fair amount of debt when I was working for myself. But now I know the truth. That’s not the real reason.
The truth is this. I’m not the kind of person who is naturally cautious with money. _Aware_. I think I can be, especially now I have seen and worked out first hand just what is happening.
Now, armed with this newfound knowledge, and with the want to continue to stay abreast of what’s going in and out of the account, I feel much more .. content. At ease. It’s going to be a tough few months, but I can see the way. It’s cloudy, but at least the road is visible now :).
May this new year truly bring joy. May friendships blossom, romance be true, and love abound. True love, meek and mild. Not the stuff of tv or hollywood, but that of loyalty and commitment. Long-suffering and patient.
Cheers,